Always up to you.

 These past few days I've been a bad girl. The one who spills out things, the one who fights back. The one who blurts out anything she wanted to say just to express herself. I know I ain't perfect, you neither. It's just that, people around me were the ones who made me like this. People are people, they are what they want themselves to be...

I've been dealing with this sadness inside me the past few days because of problems. Problems I did not know I could still solve. Forlorn, I am. As long as I wanted to fight back the pain, It still comes back making me weak each time I remember. I know I could be happy. I know I will be. I keep on telling myself, "Girl, It's always your choice." - If you wanted to be happy, then be it. Likewise, If you don't want to stay down forever, then find your own happiness, It won't come to you and voila! you're fine again, It's not that. You are the one who controls your life. You are the one who decides what would happen next. This week I've been repeating that line to myself, not only to myself but to other people I wanted to help and cheer them up who let themselves suffer from sadness.

  In the end of this week I promised myself. No one could control me. I won't let no one. Not because I'm angry with someone, not because I love em. It's because I let myself to be that 'someone' I wanted to be. I don't want it to be 'because of someone' that's why I am like this, Oh, except my mom and dad, i thank them for that. (They made love that's why Im here. LOL) IT is my choice If I want to be the Bad one, the mean one, to be the extrovert or the other way around.

In the end of the day when you found yourself crying, I need you to tell yourself , "I wouldn't be sad If I don't let myself be sad. Like I can be happy If I just let myself be." - Positivity always helps. Let's make things easier. Control yourself. Life is a journey, there's no time for mourning. Remember things happen for a reason. Don't let yourself stay on a horrible ordeal. It's always about you. Always up to you. And now, SMILE beautiful creature of God. Remember He's with you. *hugs*

-dindin- :)